love and mundaneness- a realisation

In my tiptoes to finishing my degree, I’ve never given much thoughts on the subject ‘love’.

For years, I am always occupied with what I have in my plate- getting the best out of my uni years. If I am not busy studying, I’ll be busy volunteering or working on some projects. I collected responsabilities like a pokemon card- I cherish my time too much that I don’t want to 'spend' them into something uncertain such as ‘love’.

Looking back, I think I did a great job in keeping focused and adamant on my goals and responsibilites. However, I realised that I might have framed ‘love’ wrongly, or at least, in a very narrowed dimension.

Not only to romantic feelings, but I guarded myself from any kind of warmth that the world has to offer. I build a high wall upon myself, shielding myself away from everything, including friendship and familial. I thought, opening up myself will make me vulnerable, and giving away my time will make me loss more of the time for myself. 

However, as I live more and meet different kind of people, I realised that love is never a waste- it is what keeps the world going. Love is not meant just for romantics, but it’s the simple gesture of kindness, of attentiveness, of remembrance. 

It’s when we blossom a smile to strangers on the streets, when we open the door and wait for the next people to enter, the random message to a friend just to make sure they are doing fine, the random dinner hosting at one’s place filled with laughters and cosy moments, the unexpected hand holding out to offer help, the short walk in the park under the glistening sunset- it’s all the small and mundane things, never something grandiose. 

Especially for people at my age, I think people are afraid to let themselves to soak in this ray of 'effortless' love. We used to think love as something big with huge sacrifice, that can only be intimately experienced between two lovers. But love is all around us, and it's always there.

Maybe we're just too blinded by our fears to actually realise it.

And for this note, I hope you, who are reading this, will not be afraid to embrace the love given, and to give love to people around you.

Because no matter what, love is never a waste.

15:18,

25th of May,

Sky of Germany