I want to live for you.

growing up, we’re being told by the media that the highest form of love means sacrificing oneself in the most dramatic way-

‘I’ll die for you, I’ll take the bullet for you, I will drown in the sea for you’.

at the first glance, these actions seem to be endearing- ‘what an honour to have someone wanting to die for me’.

and yes, that’s true. We all are yearning for love that want to consume us wholly, who want to take the stake to save us- even when we couldn’t do it ourselves.

but is that all to profess your utmost loves? to put a grand gesture, a big performance, and to end the stories with one of us ‘dying’- is that the happy ending we want? 

what about ‘I want to live for you’?

what about ‘I want to be healthy for you’?

what about ‘I want to chase my dreams for you’?

what about ‘I want to be close to God for you’?

what about ‘I want to be mentally-secured for you’?

what about ‘I want to heal my trauma for you’?

what about ‘I want to be vulnerable and transparent for you’?

what about ‘I want to sleep well for you’? 

what about ‘I want to be kind for you’?

what about ‘I want to see, hear, and understand you fully’?

Well i guess,  it’s easier to just ‘choose’ death for our loved ones, rather than ‘staying’ alive.

because it requires effort, intention, and consistency.

over, and over again. 

playing song: DOKO (도코) - Can i love u?

- paris

15th of dec'25, 

01:48 am