KAA - 5 Years of High School Memories

Assalamualaikum and hello!



Now that Uni is going to start, I have approximately a month left before venturing to the next crucial phase of my life. Hence, I’m trying to write more frequently so that my blog wouldn’t be too empty when I’m busy with my foundation year later.

Alright, this morning, I’m accompanied by the sound of calming rain pouring down greeting the early birds (not an early bird but I’m lucky to be one today), a full cup of hot tea to become the warmth to the cold morning, a piece of my favourite croissant that dad bought upon coming home from work because he knows I need to eat one every morning as my breakfast, and the spotify playlist playing the OSTs I loved, it’s playing Sori by AKMU Suhyun from Mr. Sunshine now.

With the great combination to start the day, I’m going to reminisce my good ol’ day as a Kelas Aliran Agama or KAA student in my high school for 5 years.

So, where should I start?

It was during the end of 2014, I was 12 years old, just ended my primary school life, that my mom asked if I want to take the test for KAA in the high school I’m going attend the next year. And I was just like ‘okey I will’. That time, I never wanted to be in KAA, I only know that it’s a ‘special’ class with extra subject of Arabic, and I despise Arabic that time. Why? Ermm, my previous Ustazah in my primary school was too strict and scary that makes me hate the subject lolol.

Ok but anyway, I didn’t study for it, i mean, who does? i see no one studying before the exam (this is a bad guide #dontfollowus hahaha). I was only skimming through the few first pages of the reference book of UPKK during the morning of the exam. Then I answered the exam, both writing oral test, and waited for the test result for a few days.

Dad went to check the results and, my name wasn’t in the passed list. And I was, ‘okeyh’. Like I said earlier, I didn’t care about it nor that I want to be in that class. And my parents didn’t care about that too so, ‘okayh’.

But me as a curious cat, messaged my friends from my primary school who took the exam too via Facebook Messenger. And guess what, all of them were accepted except me.

Welp.

I was feeling quite embarrassed. Knowing that I’m the only left one is NOT cool, well that’s according to my old immature proud little self back then haha. But yeah it does feel quite terrible to be the only one not passing in something you took together :’)

   

Fast forward, I started my high school life. Because I’m a foreigner, my name wasn’t put in the list of the class distributions in the first day of school (which is weird because I’ve registered earlier long time before???). My dad asked one of the staff or teacher idk I can’t remember, which class I’m going to be in, and she said 1E which is the last class. And I was like ‘uh okayyh’ . Thankfully we went to the school office and the secretary told me to get into 1 Bestari, which is the class for those who got straight As in UPSR, thankfully, that means i would not go through changing class again after this.

The first month, I was having an okayh life of high school, still struggling to make friends and adapting with the new environment. Though I still remember how exhausting and hectic was the orientation week, that first week of school was very tormenting that I felt like quitting school :’ i think it was the first moment i feel so stressed out and depressed to be in school in my entire life.

So, all form 1 and form 2 students are supposed to be having school in the evening session (this is normal at Malaysia, to have 2 session of school because most schools couldn’t provide sufficient classes for all forms) excluding KAA. But we were lucky because the school decided to let us, 1 Bestari students to be in the morning session of school yeyhh!! And because of that, we often meet 1 KAA students because we were the only form 1 classes in the morning session.

1 and a half month passed by, when suddenly an offer message to enter KAA class slid into my message inbox.

Ummm wait what?

Told mom and she said it’s up to me if I want to accept it or not. I was torn between. I still don’t have any interest to learn Arabic (I was relieved before to know we’re not going to learn it and only KAA students will have to lolol). I asked my close friend in 1B for advices, and she told me to just accept the offer because there’ll be many advantages for being in that class. Well, that’s true and very obvious though. I’ve been envying their class because they get to have a permanent class which they gonna use for 3 straight years (while us going to change class every year), the class decorations is 😍😍 and the students there seems friendly, and more outgoing compared to 1B 😂

I made a comparison table in a blank notebook. I remembered writing the cons and one of it is that I’ll need to learn Arabic and having class ended later than other classes.

I don’t know what makes me take the decision in the end but, yup, I accepted the offer.

My other 2 1B classmates who already moved to boarding school earlier also got the offer and they accepted it. So we three, along with other few from other classes, enter KAA as the ‘second intake’.

I remembered my first day, it was…. very hectic. I didn’t remember what happened or what I felt that day but it was just very hectic haha. Luckily there are some friendly pals in the class who greeted and helped me so that I won’t feel too awkward. But one thing I remembered is that, it was during my first Arabic class and it was the last period of the day. I couldn’t understand a thing and made a repetitious mistake in making a simple Arabic flowchart table. We weren’t allowed to go home unless we completed it correctly. I tried a few times and couldn’t get it right. And worst of it, I was the only left there, those friends that I just made earlier already went back home.

But luckily, one girl stayed and helped me. If you know her, her name is Izzah. I was VERY VERY grateful that I still remember it clearly till this day. She’s like the saviour of my gloomy and dead-end moment. Thanks to her, I managed to complete it and went home, with the pang feeling of nervousness and feeling very stupid. Yup stupid, I felt very stupid in my first day as a KAA student.

In like 2 weeks later, we have the very first monthly exam. Of course, I did terribly In Arabic because I only learnt it in a really short span of time (justifying my low mark hahahah), I got a C. But thankfully I managed to be in top 3 in the class that time, and top 10 in the entire batch i think? Idk. It was very hard to adapt in the new class, because KAA class have more subjects, classes, works and projects in comparison to the calm and peaceful life in my previous 1B class, it was physically and mentally exhausting.

So, did I regret getting into KAA?

NOPE. In fact, it was one of the best major decision I’ve ever made in life.

The following months and years were full of surprises and funs. I managed to adjust myself better in the class, made a lot of new friends (trust me my classmates are THE BEST HUMAN BEING EVER I’m so grateful to meet every single of them 🥺💗💗💗), becoming braver and more outgoing than my old quite and reserved self, staying late at school to do homeworks and group works, decorating the class, play this and that games with the crackheads in my class, having and hosting an enormous end-year party every year (prepared LOTTA food because all teachers in the school are joining our party too) and of course lastly, becoming a kpopper in the end HAHAHAHHAHA. KAA class in my school is well-knowned to be having a big number of avid kpoppers in comparison to other class, don’t ask me why, I don’t know the reason myself. I got the kpopper virus for being a KAA student lolol.

Of course there are moments when I felt ‘ why did I accept the offer kdvnfwofnw ‘. That was when I was mentally affected with, well, a lot of things. Of course, it was tiring because we have a lot of things going on compared to other class. KAA also bear a huge burden of teachers’ high expectations on us academically and ‘attitude-ly’. We are often compared to other classes for our academic achievements and behaviour. Well the behaviour one is ‘rational’ though because as a KAA student, obviously we need to behave accordingly :’

But nevertheless, it was a fun ride!! My life has been full of colours and surprises. I enjoyed my ‘KAA life’ very much that if I was to be traveling back in time of getting the offer, I would’ve accepted it in a split of second.

I’ve come to love Arabic and Islamic studies by the time passes, and ended up scoring the highest for the subjects most of the time 🥺.  Arabic become one of my favourite subject despite getting A TON of homeworks and bringing a huge thiccc Arabic-Malay dictionary EVERY SINGLE DAY, getting strict punishments for wrong answers and having nervousness running in our veins every time it’s going to be Arabic class because we would get quizzes in every class lolol. But still, it’s very fun and thrilling, leaving me with a bittersweet and an unforgettable memory of studying Arabic with our beloved Ustazah Azlina <3 ( i love her very muchhhh! 💗💗💗)

I’ve also come to like other Islamic subjects, Syariah Islamiah and Al-Quran Sunnah. Actually I planned to drop out of KAA after PT3 because I want to focus to be in Pure Science class, but I glad I didn’t! Even though it was really undoable to be having AND focusing for 12 subjects for SPM, having PDP classes ended on 5:00 p.m everyday, LOT of homeworks and extra classes almost every weekday nights and also on weekend  :’) (but alhamdulillah we get through it askdjdjkdkd)

I reallyyyy love it when we have Arabic Month, because we’ll have many competitions between KAA classes and activities going on, such as Arabic public speaking, dikir arab, kalam jama’ie and hiwar (Arabic dialogue-acting) competitions, *psss my class won the second place during form 1 beating other forms and I was in that team!!!, Arabic souq (where we sell stuffs but by speaking in Arabic!), and lot more thrilling activities!

And lastly, the most prominent reasons why I’m glad to be in KAA class are because, I get to learn the language of Al-Quran, being in the ‘islamic-studying’ environment throughout my high school years, given more knowledge of Islam that I wouldn’t get if I stayed in 1B, creating precious bittersweet memories to be reminisced back in the future, and of course, to be granted a strong bond out of our KAA family.

Yup, a strong bond. I think maybe it’s because we get to be with the same classmates for almost in all of our 5 years in high school that we have a stronger bond with our classmates. We are really comfortable with each other, cracking lame jokes, playing thrilling games, be our own self and exposing our true sides, and overcoming all the hurdles and obstacles together as one. Not only with our KAA classmates, but also with our seniors, juniors and ustazah-ustaz (s). We really feel like a real big family, doing usrah, camping together at school for muhayyam arabi and relate with each other very well (though sometimes we quarrel and fight lmao idk why hahahah).

Special mention to Kak Alia Jafri, for being the first and kindest senior ever for me. I remembered how she messaged me first in Instagram even when I was still in 1B, and we get closer when I get into KAA. She’s one of the reason why I was excited to be in KAA, and try to ace it because I admire her and want to have as a good soul as hers :')  syukran kak Alia! *giving virtual warm hugs  <3

So I guess that’s it? Welp this is a really lengthy-entry hahaha. I literally wrote a 5 year-worth of me rambling random memory of being a KAA student for 5 pages. If you’re reading this till the end, thank you , I really appreciate it ☺️💛✨

The rain has stopped and the tea has gone cold,

Till we meet again in the next posts!

Love,

Heba

(2097 words,  26^th June of 2020, 8:54 a.m)

*currently song playing on spotify; What We Gonna Do by Cosmos Hippie, Cheese In The Trap OST

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SPM Straight As - Thoughts (2019)

Asssalamualaikum and hello!

It’s been months since the announcement of SPM results. I remember feeling nothing during the previous months I was isolating at Jakarta alone, but then freaked out about It once I set my first step of the year at Kuala Lumpur International Airport (KLIA).

I remembered bombarding my friend about how anxious and scared I felt upon waiting for the results. The thing was that I done very badly in Addmath and Physics paper that I felt there’s no chance for me to get even an A-. Also that no one in KAA (Kelas Aliran Agama) in my whole years of studying there has ever gotten a straight As, considering how tough it is to be studying and focusing in 11 subjects at one (12 in my case). But even so, the thought of not getting a straight As alone makes me shivered because I’ve been expecting the results my whole life ever since knowing Dr Amalina’s achievement in SPM.

But, results. isn’t .everything.

That’s what I’ve been trying to tell myself, and also a fact. I come to finally calm myself and not expecting much, as I know how hard I’ve worked all this time, I know myself the sufferings and things I’ve sacrificed, so it doesn’t matter what’ll the result be.

But, but, but.

Now I got another anxiety, of what people will think upon me. In others’ eyes, I’ve always been a top student, holding the great responsibility and high expectations from my teachers especially. My parents said they don’t care what my results will be because for them, what’s important is the value of what I learnt and they’ve witnessed how much I studied back then. But I’m afraid of giving my teachers disappointment, especially for those who taught me before. I’m afraid that I’ll need to dig a hole and hide myself on the results day because the attention would be on me.

But,

My friend told me that, the world isn’t revolving around me only. Yes, I’m the top student, but people wouldn’t be focusing on me all the time. ‘Ah.. you’re right, you’re right!’ Why I’m too cooped up in my whole self-centred world only?

I forgot that it wouldn’t be just me on the day, a lot and more students are just as nervous as me, or even more.



I wouldn’t be getting to fly high all the time, and that’s okay. It’s okay to have failure, because failing means there’s no other way going down anymore, the only way afterwards is reaching up and high.

The results day came. I tried to be as calm as possible upon reaching school. Passing the juniors eating in the hallway with calm and grace demeanour. But once someone approached me, those shield I’ve been putting on shattered. Cold sweat starting to be excreted. I feel the heat against the cold sweat beads on my face, and yes, I looked totally terrible that time. I can’t hide my nervousness anymore.

On 10 something, the results for 7As and above are announced. One by one, my friends went up to the stage with a grateful smile on their face. I can’t look up and started to text my friend at other school frantically, knowing that she won’t answer anyway since she’s also receiving her results there.

When it goes up to 10As, the whole world muted around me. I could hear and feeling nothing. It feels like I’m in one of those movie scene where the whole world are moving in fast-forward leaving me alone in confusion.

My friends around me told me that they’re sure I’ll get a straight As, though I denied frantically, I’m afraid of end up disappointing them too. Suddenly they asked me to sit in a ‘circle’ between them ( we were sitting on the floor that time ). And I was like NOOOO I wouldn’t get it.

And suddenly, boom, my name is called. And I was as clueless as forever, wait what is the result I got? I didn’t hear a thing from the announcement. And as clueless as a lost chick, I got up, and everyone around me applause for me.

I got up to the stage and it was written ‘Semua A’, and I started to cry lol. I literally couldn’t believe it, like, how did I even!? Okay I was embarrassed and regretted it that I cried lol, I think someone got my ugly face crying picture. I still couldn’t believe it till now, that’s why I only post about it once on my Instagram story.

 Because I don’t think I deserve this.

Though I did work really hard the past 2 years, but getting a 12 As, precisely 8A+ and 4A seems to be a dream. I was very sure that I did my Addmath and Physics very badly, I was even scared I’ll score badly in Biology and Chemistry too.

But I guess Allah wanted to tell me something by giving me this very gift that I don’t deserve. I still can’t say I’m a straight As student confidently, or share it to the world. Because this results isn’t solely achieved by my blood sweat and tears, but rather, they are actually a precious gift from my family, teachers, friends and other who always pray for me in their prayers.

So, I hope that this results would not only gives pleasure to my heart, but also as an inspiration to others too, especially to my very dear juniors.

I see this as not an achievement for me, but rather an obligation to help and share my experience and knowledge to others, so that they’ll have more faith and guidance in surviving their high school years. Thus why I’m trying to give tips on my Instagram and blog as the way of 'repaying' this back.

But sometimes I’m feeling hesitant to do so, what if it seems like I’m bragging? What if they don't even need it and I was the only excited one here? What if the tips aren’t even useful for them?

Those thoughts keeps haunting me and I got anxious again. I’m always overthinking in every of my actions both in real life and online because of this scaredy-cat heart of mine. But, I’ll try to chin up and be brave. Because my niat is to spread goodness and benefits to others. Anxiety shouldn’t be in my way for that. So I’ll try my best to overcome that :')

Lastly, if any of my junior are reading this (thank you!), please please please do not make your results as the sole goal of studying! Of course, it’s great to be the top student, getting praised and receiving awards, but if you makes your results solely dictate your value as a student, that’ll make you distressed and unhappy ☹ Getting any bad results doesn’t devalue yourself as a student and getting a better results does not means you are any better student than others.

What’s more important is your determination and keikhlasan in studying for the sake of getting the knowledge and understanding the world, not only for exams. What’s important is your attitude as a student, towards menuntut ilmu and action towards your teachers and friends. Since I was young, my parents always tell me to not be stressed out because of exam results, just do you best and be ikhlas in studying, and insya Allah success will follow you in the end.

I guess that’s all now. Now onto the next stage of life. Im skek skskskdks but here we go. Please pray for me :’)

Love,

Heba

8:13 a.m,  19^th June 2020

(featuring mocha's wildness and whitney's curiosity)

(my dad edited this for me >.<)

Hospital Playlist Season 1 Review (2020)

THIS. DRAMA. IS. A. MASTERPIECE

I wasn’t expecting that I would love the drama this much. Actually I’m not a fan of medical drama before, but since I watched Romantic Dr. Teacher Kim S1 and S2 earlier this year, I become obsessed! And to my surprise, this drama is really one of a kind among ALL dramas that existed.
 I was curious about this drama because of Shin Won-Ho PD, he’s well-known for The Reply Series which I love. I always remember the warmth from Reply 1988 that I watched few years ago. Even though I’m quite sad that there’s only one episode per week, but I have a huge RESPECT to Shin PD because he tried to make a new change to korean drama production, which would not tire the life out of the crew productions, giving the best show while maintaining the quality and the welfare of those involved in the productions :’ It never crossed my mind how hectic and overworked the staffs are to produce 2 episodes per week (especially during this pandemic). I really hope this will make a good start and example for k-drama (and other) productions to take care of all staffs too! Oh and anyway, if you do the math of the duration of all 12 episodes, it would be less and more equivalent to the 16 episodes of regular kdramas, as one episode is approximately 1.25 – 1.5 hours . So we are not actually losing a lot from this 'new system'.

At first, many people weren’t sure if this drama going to success or not since it’s a ‘non-linear’ drama, no main plot or ‘problem’ that drives the story. But turns out this drama gets the recognition it deserves by both Korean and international audience! This drama is really a fresh story to our frantic life. As usual, Shin PD-nim took the risk to create such a ‘normal’ plotline with a lot of characters. I was quite reluctant to watch it at first, but I trust Shin PD and Lee chakkanim’s vision of drama and proceed watching it as soon as the first episode is released.




There are a lot of things that makes me love this drama so much. The main reason is because the characters. The ’99 squads; Chae Song-Hwa, Lee Ik-Joon, Ahn Jeong-Won, Kim Jun-Wan and Yang Seok-Hyeong as the main stars have their own distinctive and subtle traits and charms that attracted the audience. I love every single one of them. Even though they have different personality; Song-Hwa the wise all-rounded perfect human-being, Ik-Joon the happy virus and party leader, Jeong-Won the pure and kind one, Jun-Wan the grumpy strict yet mature and righteous, and Seok-Hyeong the introvert yet attentive and cute, they really make a perfect squad! All the characters are really lovable and relatable. This drama is very different from other dramas because the storyline isn’t just revolving around the 5 leads, but we get to see the glimpse of other characters’ life and it was done very subtly and smoothly that I don’t feel overwhelmed at all to focus on several characters. The fact that we get to see different side of the story makes me feel more attached to other characters as well! I can relate much to some of their stories and it really makes me feel warm in my heart.

There are some characters that I would like to mention;

- Jang Gyeo-Wool

-          My first impression of her wasn’t that great. The first scene of her was when she being blunt and straightforward in telling the patient’s mother that she could’ve save her child earlier if she do the CPR, but was confronted by Jeong-Won, him telling her that a doctor shouldn’t just straightly stating the fact without consideration beforehand, especially when it involves to the patient’s life. JGW immediately realize her mistake and make up for it. Even though she’s a very cold and blunt person, she learnt her mistake quickly and become more sensitive towards other. I really enjoyed seeing her character progress throughout the drama. I also love that she didn’t give a damn of what other thinks of her, she just being herself all time but open to personal growth. And of course, it was Jeong-Won who became the main protagonist in melting Gyeo-Wool cold and rigid heart *winkwink.

- Do Jae Hak

-          Awwhhh I really love his character. He’s soooo precious!! At first he seemed like the kind of person who’s very careless, sloppy, and could not do anything right. But turns our he has such a big and lovely heart. His interaction with Professor Jun Wan never fail to make me laugh and feeling warm. If I could make a simple metaphor, Jae Hak is the water and Jun Wan is the fire. Although their personality totally clashed together, but they really compliment each other. Jae Hak’s huge compassion is really really heartwarming. He’s really sensitive when it comes to other feelings and actions. One scene that strucked my heart was when he was at the lowest point of his doctor life after getting trouble with fussy patient along with getting scammed for the money he and his wife saved for years, he still have the will to move forward and not succumb to the sadness any longer. It was already hard for him to even be a doctor, the fact that it took him years to pass medical school. He said that even though he’s lacking a lot in term of ‘living decently’, the only thing he’s good at is working and studying hard, so he shall stand with it till the end. His determination and strong-will is very admirable WE NEED TO PROTECC HIM AT ALL COST!!! I’m really sure he’ll be a good doctor in the future <3

- Chu Min Ha

-          I didn’t pay attention at her at first, but as time goes, I grow fonder of her character. I love how she’s straightforward and very hardworking. Although she is fast to complaining and venting her anger, she’s very considerate of others and honest with her own feeling. She endured the hardships very well and determined to do a great job. I’m wishing her well for her relationship with Seok-Hyeong, they really suit each other well  <3

Love Line Story

The love line of the story is very well executed. I was not expecting that there’ll be one since it is not the main theme of the drama and of course, it’s not the main driver of the story. But I’m very glad that it’s also included as it gives me the pleasure of fangirling for each episode! What I love about it that it was done very subtly and realistically, not forcing the love-line to us viewers all at one.

 Lemme fangirl for every love-line story here;

-        1.   The first one would be The ‘Dove’ couple, Jun-Wan and Ik-Sun. Though their love story escalated fast in the beginning, but it didn’t slow down my excitement towards them. I love how mature and understanding their relationship is. Though Jun-Wan is a rigid person, he’s very understanding towards Ik-Sun as he cherished her very much. Ik-Sun at the other hand never failed to amaze Jun-Wan (and me), I can totally understand why he’s attracted at her! One thing I learned from them is that; COMMUNICATION IS THE KEY! Also, I think the chill-outgoing personality really does runs in her family lol. I really stan her with her brother they’re very hilarious together. I can’t wait to see what’ll Ik-Jun say about their relationship later (even though deep down I’m pretty sure he already knows that because EXCUSE ME? Ik-Jun is the most fast-witted character that ever exist there). The ending of ep 12 was sad though, I hope there wouldn’t be turbulence in their relationship ☹ Jun-Wan has sacrificed a lot to let her be happy in her own way :’)

-          2. Min-Ha and her brave love for Seok-Hyeong is very admirable. It started off with Min-Ha’s prejudice and one side judgement towards Seok-Hyeong, which later blooms to an admiration and respect. I love how their love story line is portrayed subtly yet surely, their progression is very cute. Not sure if it’s going to work out in the end, considering how complicated it would be by the moment Min-Ha knows the intricated side of his family. Seok-Hyeong draws a distinct line between them from the very beginning till the end, but I’m sure he did that because he cared much for her that he didn’t want her bubbly and lively self to get involved with his life messiness :’ Ahhhh Seok-Hyeong is so considerate and attentive I’m really rooting his happiness with Min-Ha <3

-          3. Ik-Joon and Song-Hwa’s pure love. I wasn’t expecting Song-Hwa’s love story to be with one of the guy of 99’ liners, but I’m relieved that we get a huge hint between her and Ik-Joon, and their relationship is actually that becomes the most anticipated story for season 2! Knowing Shin PD’s style of giving vague hints and confusion especially for love story, he totally caught us unguarded at first, though some of us speculated of them at few first episode ( also with Jun-Wan), but it was merely speculation because we didn’t get visible hint earlier. Deep down, I’m sure that Song-Hwa also have a deep feeling towards Ik-Jun, at least some kind of crush in their med school life. And they are really perfect together, I love how Ik-Joon only show his vulnerable side towards Song-Hwa, and always end up looking for her by the end of the day as if that’s what he’s anticipating the most when finishing his work. But even so, their story is going to be really complicated. They are already in safe zone of close friendship for about 20 years, it’s not easy to cross the line and evolve to a relationship, especially that they both already got history together before, new commitments and works. But I really hope their relationship will work out in the end :’ I mean, boy Ik-Joon has been suppressing his feelings for freaking 20 years for the sake of friendship because of his big heart!! We need a happy ending for him, and of course, U-Ju needs to get a new ‘real’ mom this time to grow up with lots of loves and affections <3

-         4.  And lastly, our main end-game of the drama, Jeong Won and Gyeo-Wool, or our precious ‘Winter Garden’ Couple! <3 Oh my I’m fangirling them very very much!! I love how innocent Gyeo-Wool’s love towards Jeong Won. Their scenes together always gives me a butterflies in stomach, even if it was a simple gesture of their eyes-lock during the surgery scene. I love how Gyeo-Wool didn’t give up till the end, even though it seems like there’s no hope anymore to stop him from becoming a priest. I think most of us can relate to her one sided unrequited love :’ But even so, she didn’t waver and still be honest with her feelings. Jeong Won in the other hand, he totally drew a clear line since the very beginning (that makes my heart ache for Gyeo-Wool), didn’t give any visible hints and keeps denying his feeling. But welp in the end we knew that Gyeo-Wool has always been deep in his heart asjsfskjwkjfipwfn. I love how their love story is not forced just because of the viewers demands. We know that he’s always been wanting to be a priest, not wanting to leave his dreams despite his mother’s clear opposition ( I can understand how devastated Mama Rosa would’ve felt when all of her children becoming a priest and not having a family of their own:’) ). But in the end, he realised that he’s always been loving his work. He’s the best example of a good and virtous doctor out there, especially that the fact that medical field is seriously lacking of paediatrician. In the two last episodes, we can see how his determination to be a priest waver, and we’re shown of multiple scenes of his pure passion for taking care of others as a doctor, and adding to his great affection towards Gyeo-Wool that become the ‘trigger’ for him to stay at Yulje Medical Center <3 I totally enjoyed and fangirl this slow burn romance very much, looking forward to see the cute side of them later in season 2 dknfoknfonwdpkwn. And of course, HUGE THANKS TO Ik-Jun for representing us as the cupid for their relationship!!! I LUV YOU IK-JUN!!!!  I’m sure Ik-Jun will be a proud father knowing that it turns out well in the end xD I can imagine him teasing Jeong Won forever HAHAHAHHAHA . Can’t wait when for it :p *smirk.

 

Special mention;

Mama Rosa and Jong-Su everlasting friendship!! They’re veryyyyyy adorable and playful together even though they’re already at old age. At first, I thought Jong-Su and Ju Jeon are another ‘greedy’ men of power wanting to overtake the hospital after the death of the hospital’s director, but turns out that they’re very virtuous and responsible. I love every single scene of Mama Rosa and Jong-Su, especially the bickering part asdhsfindkd! One of my favourite scenes was when they’re looking for her car in the hospital parking lot, only for her to remember that she actually took a taxi to the hospital lolol. And how in the end they just got dumbfounded and laugh out of loud together, realizing that they’ve gone old and slowly forgetting things easily :’) Ahh I really wanna spend my old days happily and joyfully like them :’) <3 I stan their friendship very much. I do hope Jong-Su will find serene in his old days just like how Mama Rosa successfully prevent Jeong Won to be a priest, and getting a new daughter in law too!! :3 <3

 

The Ost (s)

I love all the soundtracks and their band performance. Every single songs in this drama has this nostalgia feelings that makes me wanted to reminisce the old time (that I don’t actually have lolol I’m gonna play the playlist again in 20 years later). Each song tugs my heart and makes me feel very happy and warmed. The beats, the lyrics, and the vibe just light up my mood everytime.

My favourite OSTs are;

-         -   Introduce Me a Good Person by Joy

-         -  Gather My Tears by Whee In

-         -  Beyond the Rainbow Forest by Park Hyu Jin

And my favourite Mido and Parasol  performances are;

-         -  Aloha by Cool (Seok-Hyeong is so cuteee!! now I feel like going to noraebang with my crackhead friends too)

-          - Oh! What a Shiny Night by Crying Nut (the end is so funny sksksks)

-        -   Confession is Not Flashy by Lee Seung Hwan (we know who you’re singing to Jeong Won ;p)

-          - With All My Tears by Seo Ji Won ( this is very heartbreaking ☹ )

 

Last Note

What I would like to highlight the most from the drama is how relatable the story is to a lot of us. Sometimes, we forget that we are actually the main hero of our story just because we don’t have this ‘life-turning’ or grand bombastic event in our life. This drama depicted that despite everyone leading a different path of life, having different professions, works and commitments, we are all just human in the end. We all suffer, cry, and laugh together at some point of life. Even though there’s no main plot/catalyst in the story, it was the characters who drove the story. This drama didn’t require all of our attention for its plot, rather, just letting us to immerse and enjoy the very mundane daily life of people of hospital and the patients. The side story of the patients always hit me hard in my heart. I always thought hospital as a scary place where people being bedridden sick and dying, but this gives me another view of hospital, rather now, I see hope and compassion of people at the hospital. There are a lot of scenes that makes me cried, and also makes me grinning alone and laugh like a mad girl alone. The interaction between the patients, the doctors and other medical staffs really warmed my heart. This makes me appreciate doctors and all involved in medical field more, because each one of them will always be doing their best in treating the patients and wishing for their health and happiness <3

By the end of each episodes, with the particular drum beats that gives us reassurance and perfect closure feelings, I always have this warm feelings in my whole heart and mind. This drama makes me wonder a lot and I learnt a lot about ‘life’ in every episode. All the characters’ story resonate very well for me that I’ve grown TOO attached with their life. I felt like as if they all exist in real life. Watching this story makes me want to work very hard to reach my dream, but also to enjoy every single moment in my life with big heart and mind. And of course, finding some wholesome squad like the 99’ers! I really hope that I’ll get to do things I’m really passionate with later, and surrounded by kind and wholesome people just like them all <3

What I’m looking forward for Season 2;

-          -  Ik-Jun and Song-Hwa’s relationship

-          - Winter Garden CUTE MOMENTS

-          - Whatdeheck seok-hyung’s ex-wife want appearing again in his life

-          - The truth behind the returned packaged of Jun Wan’s gift to Ik-Sun

-          - Why Jeong Won always has a headache (I hope it’s nothing serious if not I’m gonna cry he is about to have a happy life with his loved one skciowdoiwdnfo)

-          - Chi-Hong’s development to be a better doctor, becoming a new and responsible chief and moving on from Song-Hwa HAHAHAHAH ( I never ship them :p )

-          - Mama Rosa and Ik-Jun’s reaction to Winter Garden couple

-          - Jae Hak getting happy moment (oh dear he suffered a lot already)

-          - Yoon Bok and Hong Do ‘s characters development

-          - U-ju and his cuteness!!!

-          - MORE AND MORE BAND PERFORMANCE TOGETHER!!! (hopefully they’ll get to perform publicly in the hospital and showcase their talent!)

I find myself rewatching back few scenes from this drama, watching the FMVs, Mido and Parasol’s performances, and real doctor reviews of this drama after it ended. Can’t wait for season 2!! I have a lot more to write (especially the 5 crackheads) but I’m going to save it for season 2 review skdnncsdnnw.

Thank you for reading my long fangirling and ranting post <3 Have a nice day ! 😊

Love,

heba

(8:40 a.m, 15^th June 2020)

till, we meet again in season 2! <3

*PSSS Extra Wholesome GIFs of Andrea cause asdkasjkadkwof <3

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